I Wonder…©

I wonder if I do too much, take on too much
I wonder if they will be disappointed if my smile is absent next time they see me
I wonder if they will notice when I’m no longer there
I wonder if they know just how much their words hurt me
I wonder if they just don’t care

I wonder if I’ll have the time to change the way they feel
I wonder if it really matters that much to me
I wonder why I can’t stop caring as much as I do

I wonder if they know I used to cry myself to sleep
I wonder if they really need to be who and what they are
I wonder if they could survive being me

I no longer wonder, I’ve decided just to be me
The me I used to be before I started to care about them and what they would think of me
So now I no longer have to wonder or cry myself to sleep

I Wonder…©

©Copyright 2016

By Felina Silver Robinson

For those who know me, this piece is not about me. It is written as a reflection of young girl I know who is constantly worrying about what others think about her and how they treat her. She is working on finding her inner peace as we speak.