There is a darkness I feel within me. I can’t put my finger on it. My heart feels such warmth for those closest to me. There is a special light they bring to my halcyon day. My kids are what drive me to push forward, to where or what to, I’m not sure but it’s clear I move forward and not backward. When I’m alone, the darkness pulls me down. I find myself trying to hold onto anything I can get my hands on to pull me up and out, but my hands continue to slip. I’m pushed deeper into oblivion. Grief is holding me hostage, while desire peaks around the corner. What do I desire is the question, whatever it is would have to be quite boffo. What could I possibly need? I shall try to explain. I bellow out the mondegreen words wondering if anyone will grasp their meaning. My heart remains diaphanous from all the emotional chaos. I’m suddenly aware that all of this time and effort has shown me you, you are what I’m looking for. You are what I need. The darkness in me now turns to light.
By Felina Silver Robinson